Sunday, September 29, 2013

His power

When I start a post, I stare at a blank screen.
Sometimes, I come with something on my heart, pictures to share, a memory or milestone to capture.
Other times, I start with a prayer, that the words flowing from my fingers would not be mine, but His.
That His light would shine through my little corner of the Internet.

Tonight, I am starting fresh.
Staring at an intimidatingly white screen.
Letting the thoughts of the day, of the past few days, swirl around in my mind.
Praying for discernment as I settle on the words I feel God laying on my heart.

As I pondered, as I prayed, a song kept interrupting my thoughts.
One of my all time favorites.
One that puts me right in the presence of the Almighty.

How Great Thou Art

"Oh Lord, my God,
When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy hands have made;
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,
thy power throughout the universe displayed.

Then sings my soul, my Savior God to Thee,
How Great Thou Art..."

And I thought about His power.

We discussed this very topic in Bible Study this morning as we studied the third chapter of Ephesians.
People around the room shared their stories evidencing His power in their lives.
Their stories told life, birth, hope, joy, miracles.

For me, God's power has been shown time and time again.

While in my finite, very human brain, I will never fully grasp His loving power, I think I understand it a bit more clearly now that I am a mother. Not that you have to be a parent to know the loving power of the Most High. No, that is certainly not the case.

But for me, through this journey, God has shown himself more clearly than ever before. Maybe I have looked for it more closely. Realizing this is not something I can do under my own power, I have sought strength and wisdom from the Lord. That He would guide my path, dictate my ways, guard my heart.

I don't think He was withholding His power before, I think He earnestly wanted me to seek it. Seek His face. Ask Him to draw near to me, as I drew near to Him.

So often, I am guilty of placing God neatly in a box. In true Type A form, situating Him just so on the shelf. Giving Him a good dusting or repositioning every now and again. When I truly need Him to heal a hurt, provide encouragement, or answer a prayer, I carefully lift Him off the shelf, take Him gingerly out of the box, and expect Him to work some sort of magic. Entrusting Him with only the areas I assign.

Here lately, God has spent much more time out of that little box. For one, He doesn't fit very well. And another, I was spending too much time taking Him out and putting Him back in, when I really just needed Him here all the time. Honestly, some days, that scares the daylights out of me. If I give Him too much reign, what will I have to change? How will my words and attitude have to be altered to be holy in His sight? What will be affected?

And what I've learned,

As I give Him the chance to be a more powerful God,
He shows me He is an all powerful God.

Through His power, I can more clearly grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Jesus. Although, one of the things I love most about His power, is that it is always bigger and greater than I can possibly fathom.

In everything, His power is displayed.
How great Thou truly art.

Through death, He has brought life.
Through darkness, He has brought light.
Through trials, He has been glorified.
Through heartache, He has brought restoration.
Through pain and suffering, He has brought healing.

"For this reason, I kneel before the Father from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us..."
Ephesians 3:14-20

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