A Light in this Life

I have felt this tugging at my heart recently.

That's the best way I can describe it.

Tugging.

 

This feeling like there's more for our little family of three.

 

It's sorta scary.

If you know me at all, you know I am a planner, a scheduler, a doer.

I like lists.

I organize my grocery list by aisle,

my closet by colors and then by seasons.

It's bad, definitely embarassing, but it's me.

 

This tugging, while unsettling, is encouraging.

 

For a while, I didn't feel it at all.

I was complacent in my walk with Christ.

I was what the Bible describes as a lukewarm Christian.

Content with where I going,

doing what I was doing,

saying what I was saying,

living as I was living.

I was loving life and I didn't want a single thing to change.

And then it did.

And I loved the change.

I loved the change so much.

The change in the form of a little bitty baby boy.

My sweet Baker.

 Arriving three and a half weeks early.

So very cute, so very loved, and so very much mine.

 

Maybe it's because Baker was born with Down Syndrome and I knew I would come to need the strength and love of Jesus more than ever before.
Maybe it's because I became a mommy and realized the impact my life had on another.
Maybe it's because I saw the love Christ has for His children in the moment that angel baby was placed on my chest and I knew I would rope the moon and capture all the stars in the sky just for him.

Maybe.

Whatever the reason, that complacency was replaced with desire,

a burning desire to be a light in this life for the kingdom of Christ.

 

I hear a lot of things about why Brian and I were blessed with the gift of Baker.
In their encouragement, and need for words,
people have offered us many reasons why this is the path God set before us.
Some of it, I believe.
Some of it, I smile and nod in appreciation at the gesture of kind words.

 

I have my own thoughts.
Ultimately, I think about the many verses in the Bible that reference God using whatever means necessary to bring glory and honor to His name.

For that, I am grateful.
For the opportunity to show others the love and faithfulness of our Savior,
through our son, I am honored.

 

The same people that can attest to my need for organization, and schedules, can also attest to my tendency to only share what I choose to ensure people maintained a certain opinion of me. I filter my words, my attitude - rarely letting people see troubles or fears. I didn't even tell my very best friends about the suspicion of Baker being born with Down Syndrome.
I filtered.

 

But then I didn't.

I felt a tugging.

I felt like God was calling me to share.
Be a light in this life.

So, I started a blog.

And through this outlet, I seek to share, encourage, witness, and love.

 

I pray daily that someone will visit "Our Dream Come True" for a sneak peek at our precious boy and be blessed, will seek to know the love of Christ in a greater way. I also pray that I live out what I write. It's easy to say one thing, and do another when faced with the stresses and fears and temptations of this world. Through my words and actions, I pray I will be a light in this life.

I think there's more than just a blog for our little family of three.
I don't know what it is, but I know God has big plans for us as Baker's parents,
and for our sweet Baker Boy to be a light in his life.
I can't wait to see what's in store!

If you came hoping for a sneak peek of our little, but instead got the rambling of my heart, check back tomorrow.
You'll LOVE them!